I can't help but to notice you noticing me (8)

Was talking to a friend and he was saying how he thinks being single is really lonely and everything depressing.. I personally think being single is pretty awesome. Though sometimes I do feel a bit alienated when my friends all go out in pairs, all lovey dovey and committed. It looks pretty awesome on the other side too :) one day lah perhaps. But you see, I like being careful (lately anyway).. Maybe its about time I just let loose and take a leap?
Maybe.
I just get freaked out when I think of how I will be committed to one person.. And I'm so paranoid that the guy won't be able to be trusted, you know. I have met and known cheating boyfriends.. They make it seem so easy.. Its just when I get into something, I wanna stay in it.. Not being all feminist and hateful-of-all-men but I don't really trust guys sometimes. For some reason as I feel myself giving in, I quickly find a reason to climb out when I still can. I always have the mindset that I am not ready to date. Mmm.. Maybe I'm not lah. I. Am. Only. 18 after all.

Anyway on a lighter note, people (*cough Bel, *cough Daniel) say they notice that the guys I am somehow linked to are all not Chinese -__- Which is pretty true actually. I have come to the conclusion that it is because:

1. I don't hang out in a group of majority Chinese people (which I am totally cool with) and in turn the people I meet thus are majority not Chinese!
2. I find ching chongs annoying.
3. I reckon I don't look very Chinese also.

So I rest my case!! Its very amusing really lar but I don't mind not dating a Chinese now because I am liberal like that! (My parents aren't though~but this is a different story already) I do draw the whole thing to a line though hehe not because I am 'racist' but just a personal agreement lar. Can I pls have this personal agreement, because I have been giving exemptions to many of my previous ones -__- Mmm anyway, yea lah something like that.
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Turns out we will be joining futsal after all :s with a partially new team. I don't know but this time, we're really in it for the love of the game because we all don't really know what we're doing with the ball. :p but we've been heading to the field with the boys and been doing some last minute exercising hoping it will contribute to our well being during the tournament :p oh yes we are only joining the tournament because the league is apparently too much for us to handle. I just hope people don't whoop our butts too much during the tournament.
My best friend is coming this Friday :) and will be here until Monday. Not sure what we will be doing yet but I want her to meet as many of my awesome friends as possible :) although like, a whole bunch of them will be jetting off to Kuching at the same time -__- hopefully she comes again so she can meet them as well before she goes back to England.. Gosh I can't wait really. Few more days and I get to see them all again :)

Oh yes, a moment of silence for Bernie Mac, who was a man of great talent and potential to portray more of his talent, but sadly he was taken away from doing so before he could. May he rest in peace and let his name shine on upon all of us as inspiration.

The internet is being a bitch and won't let me upload any more pictures. I have class in less than 8 hours and I'm having trouble sleeping. Mm. Will do Bel's tag later when I'm out of this stupid place with lousy wireless connection.

Love, Abby.